I kid you not, I just woke up from a nap and it took so much for me to not cry after realizing that this was the real reality.

Anyway.

So first I’m in my bed and all of a sudden my ex-boyfriend is standing by my bed, and we were just talking. He starts to cry telling me that his really good friend got cut from the dance team so I invited him to join me in bed so I can comfort him.
He gets into bed saying, “あーぶね、あぶね、こうやって引っ掛けるんだろう?“　(So this is how you catch all the guys?)
I tell him, “はー？？別に引っ掛けてねーし、こうやって前は悩み事とか話したから同じようにやろうって思っただけだよ。” (Whattt? I’m not catching you or anything, we used to talk about our problems like this before so I thought we’d do the same.)
He then asks me if I had done random things that we had promised to do together, even though he said that he knew I didn’t do them from looking at my blog.
But as I held him and played with his hair I continued to answer, “してないよ、食べてないよ、etcetc.” (I haven’t done it, I haven’t eaten it, etcetc.)
One of the promises we made each other when we were dating is that we would go on a date to Harajuku when I went to Tokyo and we’d shop together because he wanted me to pick out clothes for him. We promised to eat a crepe and share so that we had room to eat our actual meals. In the dream, one of the questions he asked me was: クレープ食べた？ (Did you eat crepes?) I told him, “食べてないよ” (I haven’t eaten it.) with a smirk on my face because I knew what he was starting to get at. He was asking me these things to reaffirm the fact that I had purposely avoided doing and eating things that we had promised to do together; to reaffirm that I was still thinking about it. We continued like this until….
I woke up.
But, I woke up into a reality where I was living with my current roommate and another friend as well. We were in my same apartment (the one I actually live in, it’s a 2 bedroom), but for some reason my friend Alisa (who I don’t actually live with but lived with in the dream) was moving into the living room. And although the setup of the rooms were the same, instead of being on the second floor, we were on the first and our back door was our front door and outside was this foresty driveway. It’s one of those roads that are beneath a big main road… Like, if you walked out my “front door” you’re in the driveway and you have to walk left along the long dead-end road (our “apartment” was at the end of the dead-end) and then you’re able to turn onto the main road. If you know what I mean.
Anyway, so in our living room, my friend Alisa’s moving in and unpacking all this stuff.

I go out into the living room after waking up from my dream and at first we’re on my laptop, which was placed on the backrest of the couch that we were sitting behind. For some reason my sister was also present, but she was sitting at the counter in the kitchen studying. We watched some youtube videos and all of a sudden my youtube homepage turns really like… Japanese horror-esque. Like, the background all red and bloody, all the videos on the homepage were transparent and within the transparent tumbnails you can make out faces and whatnot. I mean, it was a fake thing that youtube had done to promote Halloween (in the dream) and so we were just kind of playfully screaming at it. It was so normal…. Anyway.
Minor detail, I called my friend Kyoshu at some point while talking/hanging out with Alisa but he didn’t answer so I just left it.
So I begin to tell her about my dream that I had just woken up from.
She starts teasing/making fun of how cheesy we are like she always used to do.
As I’m telling her about the part when he’s asking me all these questions, a crepe truck pulls up in front of my apartment. I can see this because in reality, our back door is a glass sliding door, but in the dream our back door was our front door so I could see the truck pull up in front of my apartment.
Alisa and I walk out to the back of the truck where the crepe lady, (She could’ve been called a girl, clearly young, Asian) opens up the window and says to me, “You want the big white one, right?” all polite and smiling, like all Japanese service employees are. Lol.
I glance at Alisa who’s grinning now and nods at me like, yeah.
So I say yes and as I’m waiting for my crepe to come out, I look out along the foresty road/path and there’s a group of 6 guy walking down the path holding/eating crepes. This was at night so it was strange enough that the crepe truck is driving to my place personally, and six guys walking down towards my apartment eating crepes? I was was starting to catch on that my ex-boyfriend had set this up for me as I catch a glimpse of him within the 6 guys.
The girl hands me the crepe, which was huge btw (Lolz), and I start to cry as I realize every one of those guys is a friend of mine.
First Keisuke skips up to me in his usual swag, I’m half laughing/half crying as I give him a high five.
I see Kanji who starts saying, “うー、はいはい。わかったから。” (okay okay, we get it.) like… Trying to stop me from crying. I give him a fat hug.
Koki comes next and I give him a hug while crying too, although he’s awked out by it like he usually is when he can’t decide if it’s okay to do or not.
As I’m hugging Kyoshu, I yell at him, “So THAT’S why you didn’t answer my call!!” and next to him, Billy is there and he tells me that Kyoshu was laughing when he saw that I was calling him and couldn’t answer.
Then I woke up.
Even though Ibuki (my ex-boyfriend who had supposedly planned all this) was next, after Kyoshu, I woke up from my dream. And this time, my mind immediately settled on the fact that this was the real deal.

I literally opened my eyes in bed with my left arm over face and had to convince myself to get over it.
My thoughts:
1. I think I dreamed this because my birthday is next Friday and knowing that none of my friends will be planning anything for me, my mind manifested its wish in this dream. (Freud would be proud. Bahaha.)
2. As I typed it out, I find it really interesting that out 4 out of the 6 friends that came to surprise me start with the letter K… As I was typing that out I was going to say that’s weird because usually humans tend to be drawn to things they find familiar (the mere exposure effect). Like in my case I would subconsciously be drawn to things/people that start witht eh letter M or A because those are my initials. Anyway, I was going to say that K has nothing to do with anything in my life but as I wrote that out I had an epiphany that Keith is the only “K” in my life with significance so maybe that means something too.
3. Now it’s 10:17 pm and I have to effing get ready to go to campus to study. -_____-

Anyway, yeah….. that was my dream within a dream…
Inception shit going on, idk who incepted it, but i have a strange urge to have a decent conversation with my ex-boyfriend. But we’re both too busy and it’s too late for that. Lol.

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Anyway, time to go.
OKAY, LEGGO.

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